What if Their Formula is Broken

Have you ever thought:

• Whats wrong with me?
• When will I be calm?
• When will I be normal like everybody else?

You are not alone! Story 6 is for the afflicted, those of us who have felt judged for that thing within us that is natural, its part of what makes us who we are. Im hoping you were able to deal with this in healthier ways than I did, but feeling like I belonged in the "land of the misfit toys" played into a lot of my self destructive behavior.

My self destructive behavior resulted from attempts to suppress my instincts to learn, to engage, to experience. Conforming to the practical expectations seemed to be the appropriate thing to do, after all the people pushing for me to "settle down" did care for me. But tamping down my hunger for more, created a void that I filled with unhealthy habits.

Because I thought playing by their rules would make me feel accepted.

And guess what, it didnt. The more I applied their formula the more empty I became.

Why? Because their formula doesnt apply to the game you and I are playing. I want you to consider that the pursuit of achievement is what makes you feel like a stranger in your own skin. I want you to consider shifting your efforts towards contribution instead of achievement. Contribution of your gifts and talents in service to others. 

As you begin the shift, youll find that your appetite to learn & grow now brings a measure of fulfillment. A fulfillment that is not present in the trophy's and awards.

Lets be clear, Im not saying your energy will dissipate. I am saying that focusing on serving others will free you from the judgement, it will make your skin feel like home, you will attract other "misfit toys", you will finally feel like you belong.

And I gotta give you a little warning, after I made the shift, more avenues to serve have surfaced. Which means buckets of learning opportunities are ever present. So managing your appetite for learning new things and meeting new people may become a struggle. If you dont believe me check out my brand newest web page No one ever accused me of being a web designer, but hey I never thought I would be a blogger and here we are.